My Question.

The question that has bugged me over and over today: is it possible to love two people the same? Or will the love for one person eventually cancel out any love felt for the other? My question still goes unanswered.
-Angela Ayam

Falling.

I've never been one to neglect my feelings for a long time. They would always be there, and ultimately grow stronger. This time is exactly the same, yet differs from the last time. I fell hard, unusually hard for someone I'm still in the process of getting to know. Thinking back on all the times I could have talked to him in the past, my inability to speak when he was near left me with some form of paralysis; mentally...physically. I was done, at least I thought I was. The concept of "out of sight, out of mind" stood firm until we met again. Weeks later, I'm still falling. Very capable of catching myself before I fall too hard, but oddly enough, not wanting to. I don't fear being myself in this situation as I had with all the others. Seemingly making myself a more open-minded being, perhaps these feelings would be the
ones I'm willing to take a chance on. I'm very much aware of all signs and symptoms; the pain of "what ifs" that constantly linger; stating the obvious only makes the curiosity grow stronger...
I've been afraid before. Afraid to give my feelings a chance because...I never had reason to; or more along the lines of I never had a good reason. Now I do, because the insecurities I've felt long before these feelings are now gone & shall never return. I'm willing to admit, I'm falling hard. We'll see how this story unfolds.
-Angela Ayam