Torn. (Hypothetically speaking)

| Random Rant |
| Placing myself in this situation always makes it easier... |

So there's this guy, we'll just call him Guy for now. Chemistry is crazy between us. If we're not texting, I'm thinking about him. When I'm thinking about him, he'll call or text. We have this understanding that we'll take it slow, and I can respect that. I do respect that. Feelings are flying high. I'm positive about everything I'm feeling, seemingly inseparable when...
This other guy, who I'll just name Other Guy, comes along. Smooth, intelligent, no nonsense demeanor. {Ya know, that type of personality that puts you in deep thought while trying to figure out what makes him so attractive in the first place.} Not only attracted to the physical, but he's cut from a different cloth so you need a better understanding of him in order for it to all make sense...following? At least try.
So he comes in and follows the cliché of "sweeping me off my feet", only on a smaller scale. Instantly clicked. Able to laugh and talk like we've known each other for years when it's only been a little over a month. Everything seems so right about him, but there's no need to rush until...
A moment shared between me and Other Guy makes me question myself and the situation as a whole. There is no logical explanation for me feeling the way I do, so now, I've hit a brick wall. Were the feelings for Guy as strong as I thought they were in the first place? Or had I lost sight of what I thought was real, and mistaked it for something else? Not saying feelings for Other Guy have all of a sudden blossomed, that'd be crazy. But the possibility of him growing on me isn't just a figment of my imagination. Hope I'm not confusing you, dear reader.
But...
That's where we are now. Still standing behind a door, not knowing what's on the other side. Not knowing where to turn, who to ask, how to separate the real from my own interpretation of the situation..not knowing how to feel. Scary.

-Angela Ayam